I fail at life

Well no, not really. But still, argh. "What a waste of life" bascially, haha. I just wanna do and do something active:) Something from and exciting this summer.. instead of staying home all day and stuff. Like besides biking every day, I wanna learn something new, I wanna stay something that'll keep me active. Like HECK. I'll do swimming! Haha, I actually wanna learn how to dance:( Cause that's like my disability! When I was younger, my mom said that I danced a lot, and she was gonna put me in a class.. but we just recently moved to Winnipeg, and so.. yea. She didn't know where to belong.. to look. So yea:( Fate doesn't want me to dance, but still! After watching all those pro dancers? Like Monica Parales? Melissa Reyes? Everyone from TM? Hahah:( Kind of makes me jealous! I just wish I had that kind of talent!:) I would be dancing everywhere if I did.. sigh. But I don't want to talk classes myself? My sister would think about it, but soon she'll say something like "I'm too busy" or "I got lazy".. plus we have to pay, right? And that's pretty expensive. I think. I don't know, our families pretty short on money right now, so I don't want to be spendin' for unnessacary things:( But I still wish I could dance! Or that my mom tried harder to look for dance classes.. tehe. Well, atleast I'm biking everyday in the summer? And.. running? Daily? Hahah! Yeah, I'll probably bike to Satgent with Kim and run there. At the track, and mabye a few cross countries. Depends on how I feel. HAHAH, I don't know. I just wanna get rid of this extra space, HAHA. It's so annoying and gross:( I'm so fat, it's not even funny. Geez, I just want it gone. :(:(. Oh, and I also wish I could play like sports or at least VOLLEYBALL really good. Like Arielle, Carrie and them? They're all so good, sigh*. If only I didn't quit volleyball in grade seven, I don't know where I would be now, probably B team.. but, AT LEAST I HAVE SOME KIND OF ADVANTAGE? Right? Cause now, I have nothing. Hah, I just suck at it all. Man, boo you Peach. I just really hope I'm active during this summer, that I actually do everythng I'm saying! I wanna be really really like ready for my last year at Sargent. I'm gonna still try to join volleyball. Soccer and Basketball are too late, so yea.. but I'll still join cross country, and hopefully by then I'm fast or atleast FASTER now kind of runner. And I'll also try to join track:). Sigh, I missed so much in Sargent, all the sports events. If only I decided to be like this in elementary? Like, if only I joined running club and everything else, I really do think I would look better than I do now! Hardy har har. Then maybe yea.. :( I just wanna be skinny for once:@. Honestly:( Like when I was a child. I don't even CARE if I don't get tall, I just wanna be skinny. Hmph..

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I'm so depressed right now, it's not even funny.. well, I guess I'm not AS depressed as I was like a few weeks ago, but I'm still pretty sad. Like.. I don't get too sad now when I find out things about Maurice, it doesn't hurt THAT much. It just stings. Sigh, I just don't even know what to say. It's all a waste to me now, that's what I'm feeling. As much as I want to move on and say I'm happy with who I'm with right now, God will know I'm lying. And as everyone knows, lying is a sin. Anyways, I guess that's it for now. Byeeeee.